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Feeling better.  After I last wrote I got myself ready and went to the mall and just wandered around for like 3+ hours.  I think I just needed to get out.  I think it helped. Going to go fold...

sorry i'm so behind...will try to catch up soon

Home from my parents because I had an OT appointment...thinking of maybe heading back out there for tonight or to a friends...haven't decided yet.   It's a grey rainy day here and I'm feeling super...

Going to my parents tonight.  Will probably not update again until I get home tomorrow sometime. Happy Father's Day to any dad's or single mom's out there!  

3am i'm still up...can tell you now i won't be making that up by 10am goal i'm thinking it may be time to take a bit of a break from writing here...i haven't really had much to say.  I'll still...

last night i felt like dying...today i don't but i do feel cranky and irritable...but i think maybe i need to keep in mind time of the month starts next week so maybe that's contributing. not really...

exhausted but ok, forgot to write yesterday but think the only thing to mention was i went for a walk...can't remember if anything else... today was appointment, then to the public gardens with...

i'm okay...just realized i didn't write today and don't want to lose track of some of my goals so doing that now i'm counting my getting up before 10am as being met because I did get up at like...

ended up napping the afternoon but after woke up had supper and went for a walk don't know what else to write...surviving enjoying some wine, thinking of playing a game on the wii if i don't start...

well...i guess i'm okay...went to bed early last night and got up before 10am...but didn't sleep a wink in between...didn't end up going to the blood clinic though...didn't want to get outta...

still feeling really shitty but the #'s seem to be improving 140/92 and pulse 91 last time i checked a few minutes ago...been keeping an eye every 15 minutes or so...also checked my temp because i...

i don't feel good...my bp and pulse are going crazy, last i checked it was 161/107 pulse 110 some are higher some are lower...i never did anything to make it do this...just been laying on the couch...

 don't even have words to write...better if i just keep quiet

not doing any better, if anything getting worse thoughts are all twisted, i know they are, yet i keep making everyone miserable because of them because at the moment i think it's what is right to...