cookiemon

i knew it was coming i could feel it, just when things carn't get any worse this cheerful season brings you right to your knees.i suppose yet again this is my fault no matter what so i guess i'm...

Thought i could do it, you know keep it all together, just try and make it on my own,guess  i got it wrong. seems like just when i start to get a little ahead i mess things up. i've probably said it...

maybe i am to emoitonal but at least i am honest, how can someone be warm and then just as soon be as cold as ice.condem me all you like but at least i am honest enough to know i have a problem,i am...

why carn't i just die, why carn't they just let me alone, why carn't they just leave me the hell alone.

no more pain please god no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no more pain no...

i've tried to keep my head high but it gets a little difficult when you just carn't seem to get up off the floor, always to many people to kick you in the teeth, just to many things that hurt. i...

why is every cause for celebration also a an unbearable heartache, when do we ever get the chance just to enjoy that singular moment of sucess or contented joy that comes our way. it seems that every...

this fascarde is getting out of hand, when do you know its time to give up the constant lie.the lie that has you hurting the very people you care about, feels like my head and heart are going to...

feels like i'm sinking into this black hole i call life, i'm trying to stay postive but its just to hard at the moment. acrn't even think stright right now all i know is i just want never to feel...

time to be upfront, i'm scared and i don't know what to do.i just don't wan't to go into work, it's like the black cloud has decendedupon me and i don't know how to break this cycle. i am so scared...

just when i think i can no longer carry on a ray of light beams down upon me and asks why are you letting this happen yet again, why are you not strong enough to say stop enough is most definatley...

don't think i trust myself any more, how can i say all the right things to the people i care about yet lie the person in the mirror. i am more of a fraud now than i have ever been before,just because...

i so need to cut right now, feel's like i'm gonna implode and i just don't know what the hell to do. am i lost forever.i don't know where to turn anymore and i fear this will break me,i don't want to...

At the end of my journey i can only hope god understands what i have done, what i am and what i have become....In my wildest dreams i can not expect to atone for being who i am but i do expect...

A good friend has just wrote that she felt like a stranger to herself and i think i know what she means.we never really feel like our true selves because we are never allowed to.never show your...