pain

i've tried to keep my head high but it gets a little difficult when you just carn't seem to get up off the floor, always to many people to kick you in the teeth, just to many things that hurt. i just don't want to hurt anymore
 
doesn't matter how hard you try sometimes you just have to know when to let go. i'm not supposed to be this useless, not supposed to let them down, not supposed to get them so angry. i'm supposed to be the one that brings it all together, i am nothing if i carn't do that.
tell me how to stop, how not to care about it, how to walk in and just let the shift pass no matter what, no matter what.how do i stop this weakness though , how can i make them and the job better. how do i make their targets work with little and no help and how do i change what i am, please tell me how because i cannot afford to lose this fight,
 
maybe i have lost my last fight, maybe the most important fight i could ever lose.