VolatileVacuum
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- I was given a few pills at the ER the other night to calm me down when the attacks get really bad, like they have been. But even when they gave it to me intravenously at the hospital it didn't work very well. I felt somewhat calmer but I still felt...
- It just hit me a few minutes ago that I am totally alone in this. Eight years of cutting, and during the last seven my family knew about it. A trip to a mental hospital. Three suicide attempts. And nothing. No one in my life has even tried to help...
- ...and I still feel numb and confused. When I first found out he had died I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach and everything had been ripped out of me, and every time I think about it I feel that all over again. I feel really weird for...
- Cutting doesn't work anymore. I end up getting a tiny rush sometimes, and then I just feel bored and worse than I did before. Pot used to help, but lately whenever I get high I just think about everything going on, and about how miserable I'll be...
- I'm going swimming with my friends at a lake later today. The problem is, I have a pretty deep cut on my arm that still isn't closed and scabbed over yet. I'm worried that it might get infected if I swim in the lake. If I were to wrap it with some...
- Now that I'm 18 and don't have my mother's consent, I very much want to find a therapist to help me work on my depression and, most importantly, self-injury.The thing is, I'm not exactly sure how to go about doing it. Would I have to find a specific...
- My dad died five days ago, we found out about it on Wednesday.Already, my mother is saying bad things about him. They had a really bad relationship, and he did a lot of bad things to our family, but I still loved him very much.Her saying these...
- I came out to my best friend today. I trust her and I know her really well, so I didn't worry too much about it. But when I told her, she instantly changed the subject and I could tell she was really uncomfortable. I tried to bring it up a few times...
- I've recently come to accept the fact that I'm a lesbian. I've spent most of my life denying it and trying to change it, but I realized there was nothing wrong with it.I feel like I need to tell my mom. Our relationship was never very good, but...
- Today, for the first time in the ten years I've been doing it, I've decided to quit cutting. I completely underestimated how hard it was going to be. I'm only seven hours in and my mind is begging me to do it. For no reason. I'm not upset at all and...
- I've been struggling with my sexuality since I was very young. Around six or seven. I've always been attracted to girls but at some point I began feeling very ashamed of it. I believe it was because my family is not exactly supportive of it. So I...
- My mom and I get in fights constantly over my self-injury. She thinks the only reason I do it is because I find people on the internet that do it, and therefore think it's cool. Obviously, that isn't the reason and I've tried numerous times to...
- I've been smoking 5-6 bowls a day for two years. I recently ran out and had no one to get any more from. It's been three days, and I feel like I'm going crazy. I tore my entire room apart looking for weed. I've called dozens of people and literally...
- I cut four times pretty deeply half an hour ago. It's still bleeding and my arm is numb. The tip of my middle finger is tingling also. It's making me rather nervous and I suspect I might have nicked a nerve or something.Should get medical attention?...
- The other day, I had a horrible mood swing and cut myself six times. All of the cuts were deep enough to need stitches, but I didn't feel any kind of physical pain. Even when I don't cut deeply there is always a poke or a sting of some sort. This...