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  Posted: 07/11/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion Losing it.

• Depression
  

  Losing it

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  Last Reply: a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf 07/11/2019

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  The last week or two has been interesting. My grandfather is on his deathbed with liver cancer, I have to spend a week at an independent living camp without my music because no electronics there. And so obviously no mp3. My music is my coping skill, it keeps me sane. It's how I shut out the world and it's bullshit. Tonight I got depressed out of nowhere and was danger close to breaking a pencil or something like that just so I could cut.. and I am just slowly losing it. I've been an emotional...

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  Posted: 06/30/2019

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• Depression
  

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  Posted: 06/30/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion Worrying myself to a point where I wanna cut..

• Depression
  

  Worrying myself to a point where I wanna cut.

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  Last Reply: a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf 06/30/2019

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  As the title says. I've worried myself to where I want to cut. I doubt I'll have a way to. But in there being the want is a problem. And it's because I'm almost 18 and have nowhere to go... My family won't take me.. and I mean anybody in my family.. I'll be leaving the group home at 18, and I just don't know what I'm gonna do.. do i try to go to the UK with my boyfriend asap?. Or do I stay in the states where I know where im at and can get a job in my hometown easily. And on top of that what do...

• Depression
  

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  Posted: 06/05/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion I need help..

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  I need help.

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  Last Reply: a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf 06/05/2019

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  I need to talk one on one with someone please if possible. I'm upset, in really overwhelmed, and as much as I hate to say it, my suicidal thoughts are nice and up there...

• Depression
  

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  Posted: 06/02/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion I'm losing it.

• Depression
  

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  Posted by: a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf

  Posted: 06/02/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion I'm losing it.

• Depression
  

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  Posted by: a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf

  Posted: 06/02/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion I'm losing it.

• Depression
  

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  Posted: 06/02/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion I'm losing it.

• Depression
  

  I'm losing it

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  Last Reply: Kenyatta 06/05/2019

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  so, I had this random 'episode' of depression tonight. And as usual, my mind went to stuff like ripping my own skin apart... And purposely breaking my own fingers and bones... And I don't want to.. and it scares me that my mind goes there... I mean.. I'm a cutter. But the group home I'm at doesn't allow anything that could be used for self harm.. and cutting for me was a way of release. To calm down. And now that I haven'tt cut, I think I'm losing it because of all these pent up emotions.. and...

• Anxiety
  

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  Posted: 05/31/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion Doing better, but still worrying..

• Anxiety
  

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  Posted: 05/31/2019

  a7xfoREVer_disturbed4lyf commented on the discussion Doing better, but still worrying..