Hylian_Jedi

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  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 09/25/2017

  Hylian_Jedi commented on the discussion Tonight I end falling forever.

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  Discussion Like

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  Posted: 08/27/2017

  Hylian_Jedi liked the discussion Volunteer.

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  Reason to jump

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Last Reply: Creativemind 08/29/2017

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  Continuation from previous post.I have no reason to stay alive any more. This very well could be my last post.I have no family to turn to, no friends, no tether to keep me here. I lost my job, losing my residence and was rejected from future education. I have no more excuses to stay.I cant afford civilian help and the veterans hospital once again dropped the ball. I have nowhere to go and nobody to turn to.I always knew I would never make it to 30, and i even have 6 months to spare.If this is...

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 08/27/2017

  Hylian_Jedi commented on the discussion High dive.

• Depression
  

  High dive

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Last Reply: Izumi 08/28/2017

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  Have you ever been to scared to dive off the high diving board?Work up the right amout of courage to attempt such a feat, overcomming your fear of heights. Embark of the climb, hand over hand, foot over foot. You reach the top, in what should be an accomplishment fills you with dread. Inch by inch you reach closer to the end, but there you look down and see how far you have come. You see the people waiting for the outcome, you see what you came this far to do, but you are unable to jump. You...

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  Wonder why not?

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Last Reply: HopeIsAlwaysWithYou 08/22/2017

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  I made out with a loaded gun today.The day started off kinda slow. The nightmares and insomnia make the nights rather long, but I remain in bed for i have no reason to get up.Decided to use the last of the coffee, meaning i will have to ventrue forth from my cell tomorrow to get more. I hate the outside.Started talking to a fully loaded semi automatic 9mm handgun. Apparently we have a lot in common. After a while i stared down the barrel, it was beautiful. I could really see my future. Well,...

• Depression
  

  Left alone with gun in hand

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Last Reply: sharaninmd 08/05/2017

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  Its been 8 months since i stuck a loaded gun in my mouth... Not the first and probally wont be the last, it was the last day i talked to the only person who ever cared for me.Or so i thought, its been 8 months and not a soul has tried to contact me. Maybe i am dead, not physically, but socially.Its been 8 months, and without any positives i know im gonna need to reset the countdown clock again... or finally leave this cruel world behind

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 08/03/2017

  Hylian_Jedi became friends with livt.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 08/03/2017

  Hylian_Jedi commented on the discussion I don't know anymore.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 08/02/2017

  Hylian_Jedi became friends with veggiequeen.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 07/30/2017

  Hylian_Jedi became friends with SarcasmANDscifi.

• Veterans
  

  Disabled and struggling

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Last Reply: radarblip 08/17/2018

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  Im not even sure if i belong here. I served in the infantry in the 173rd airborne brigade. Serve might not be the right word, i was on a medical profile the entire time. I severely damaged my knees in Ranger training and was sent out to the 173rd.The whole time i was bouncing around medical facilities to find a way to walk without struggling with no luck. Finally they told me that i need to go home and search medical facilities there, i agreed.My unit deployed to Afghanistan, to a little place...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Posted: 07/30/2017

  Hylian_Jedi joined the group Veterans.

• Depression
  

  Self induced isolation

  Posted by: Hylian_Jedi

  Last Reply: veggiequeen 08/02/2017

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  Outside my locked door lives a world. A beautiful world full of wonder and magic, a world in which I dont belong.This box in which I live keeps me from the world, keeps me from them. People. I have been abandoned and forgotten by those who use to call me friend, neglated by tge mother who constantly claims "i dont care", and ridiculed by all who cant understand.Inside my box lives me and my demons, they lie, cheat and manipulate to get their ways. I was tought that demons should be feared,...