Have you ever been to scared to dive off the high diving board?

Work up the right amout of courage to attempt such a feat, overcomming your fear of heights. Embark of the climb, hand over hand, foot over foot. You reach the top, in what should be an accomplishment fills you with dread. Inch by inch you reach closer to the end, but there you look down and see how far you have come. You see the people waiting for the outcome, you see what you came this far to do, but you are unable to jump. You look back to see if you climb back down, but you came here to jump, you came to take the plunge. You stare at the water, heart pounding, sweating, hand shaking in fear, slight tear rolls down your face.

That is where im at with suicide

I have a plan, it scares people cause it is very percise, meaning i have put a lot of decision and thought behind it.

It is deliberately calculated to the last variable. Where and when, who will stumble upon the body, how the act will commence, even down to the preparation before hand to insure each aspect runs as smooth as possible. No plan is complete without contingency plans.

I am at the end of the board, looking back for any excuss not to... but ive come this far to make the jump. My only question is when.