Truhal

I find that when I really care about something, I have a hard time letting go.  That goes to anything from television programs to people.  I never realized that about myself before.  I tend to...

On the day my husband passed, I sat by his bedside in awe of him.  I knew that  he was seeing the face of God.  How I wanted to be in his place.When did it start, this longing for death?  This...

It's been over a week and I still feel good.  I was surprised at first and wondered what was the turning point in my life?  What was the defining moment when the good days became dominate, and the...

I read once that widows/widowers are not capable of remembering the bad times in their marriages after losing a spouse.  I can't say that's true.  You see, in my case, I remember the kind, loving...

I changed my emotion to excellent today.  It started yesterday.  My DH has been gone since March 31, 2010.  Right after he passed, I knew a few things: 1) I'd have to rely on God completly to get...

Couples.  They're everywhere.  We see them out walking their dog.  We see them in shopping malls, in churches, in stores.  Sometimes is overwhelming and we find ourselves envious.  My first day...

I get up in the morning.  Feed the dog.  Feed the bird.  Go to work.  I force myself to do things: have dinner with friends.  See a movie.  I am not happy. I'm walking through life like I'm in...

I guess I'm in a writing mood today.  I've been thinking about a story I'm working on and here I am writing another journal entry.  This one is on walking alone and is sure to perk up the ears of a...

Eight years ago in July, My then fiance and I attended a wedding for a friend of mine.  I remember it being such a happy day for her.  I met a couple at the wedding-- young, vibrant, a life that...

The desire to live comes from strange sources.  I'm an only child.  No children.  I have a step-daughter and two wonderful grandkids, and a son-in-law.  There's a part of me that feel they will...

I was watching Suzy Orman the other day and a 10 year old child called, wanting to know if it were financially advisable to buy a thirty dollar Wii game.  She told him no.  Later a twenty-three...

Mu husband passed on March 31, 2010.  Since then I've had time to think about what makes  this so much worse than other deaths I have experienced in my life.  There has been two: a miscarrage and...

I dreamed about my husband last night.  I only dreamed once since it happened and it only lasted a few minutes.  This one was longer and more detailed.  In it, I'm sitting in the living room and...

I just read that Lena Horne lost her father, son, and husband all within a year.  She passed yesterday at 92, a truly remarkable woman who suffered more pain than I ever thought.Reading about her...

Lost a pound.  It's better than nothing.