Desire to Live
The desire to live comes from strange sources. I'm an only child. No children. I have a step-daughter and two wonderful grandkids, and a son-in-law. There's a part of me that feel they will eventually leave since our achor is gone. I hope this is not true, but you never know.
After my husband passed, I thought I'd be willing to join him any time. I fantasized about falling asleep and never waking up in this life. I smiled to think about how wonderful it would be to look into my husband's eyes and to finally see our Lord. Wow! I thought it was what I wanted. Then I got sick a couple of nights ago and learned the truth. You see the desire to live comes from strange sources, some not human.
I have two animals, a dog and a bird. So when I woke up with a high fever and feeling awful, I again thought about going to Heaven. Then I looked down at my dog. Who would take care of her? She's near the end of her life, but I wouldn't want her put down just because I'm gone.
And then my bird. He's still a baby with a life expectancy of 30 years. Who would take him? Would someone simply let him go? I found myself sitting on the edge of the bed just thinking: Dad is 82. Step-daughter in no position to take either of my animals. Is there someplace I could take my dog in case I end up in the hospital. I've had pneumonia 3 times. I've known several people who've died from it. If I die in my sleep, will anyone miss me and come check on my animals.
Lord, God, please don't take me, I screamed. I've got to make sure my beloved animals are taken care of.
I look back now and smile. Life is indeed strange.
After my husband passed, I thought I'd be willing to join him any time. I fantasized about falling asleep and never waking up in this life. I smiled to think about how wonderful it would be to look into my husband's eyes and to finally see our Lord. Wow! I thought it was what I wanted. Then I got sick a couple of nights ago and learned the truth. You see the desire to live comes from strange sources, some not human.
I have two animals, a dog and a bird. So when I woke up with a high fever and feeling awful, I again thought about going to Heaven. Then I looked down at my dog. Who would take care of her? She's near the end of her life, but I wouldn't want her put down just because I'm gone.
And then my bird. He's still a baby with a life expectancy of 30 years. Who would take him? Would someone simply let him go? I found myself sitting on the edge of the bed just thinking: Dad is 82. Step-daughter in no position to take either of my animals. Is there someplace I could take my dog in case I end up in the hospital. I've had pneumonia 3 times. I've known several people who've died from it. If I die in my sleep, will anyone miss me and come check on my animals.
Lord, God, please don't take me, I screamed. I've got to make sure my beloved animals are taken care of.
I look back now and smile. Life is indeed strange.
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