Blue_Apple

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• Broken Homes and Families
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 08/06/2017

  Blue_Apple commented on the discussion Anyone here?.

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  Why

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 07/15/2017

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  Why me? Why did this have to happen? Why do I still feel such strong feelings for him and why did my best friend have to go and date him while the wounds haven't even closed up yet? Am I seriously that pathetic? I just want to message the guy I first fell in live with and ask him half of what's going on in my head. But he probably already forgot about me. And I can't blame him. I'm such a failure and a fuck up so no wonder my ex went to my best friend. No wonder I can't find anyone to vent to....

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/04/2017

  Blue_Apple became friends with bridgie101.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/04/2017

  Blue_Apple became friends with bridgie101.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/14/2017

  Blue_Apple became friends with sjs777.

• Depression
  

  Sometimes I don't wanna be alive anymore

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Last Reply: nightingale77 05/16/2017

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  Nothing more. Nothing less. Just how I feel right now.

• Depression
  

  Guilt.

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Last Reply: sharaninmd 05/07/2017

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  Why. The fuck. Am I. Here? Why am I alive? Why should I try? Give me one fucking reason that isn't guilt. It's all guilt. It's always about others. Give me one reason that's actually for me. I've always heard your loved ones would miss you. I DON'T WANT FUCKING GUILT. I'M TIRED OF BEING GUILT TRIPPED. ESPECIALLY TO STAY ALIVE AND SUFFER THIS MISERABLE THING I'M FORCED TO CALL MY LIFE. WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT ANYMORE? It is never about myself. It's all bullshit. It's all about me staying alive...

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  Hug

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/04/2017

  Blue_Apple sent a hug to bridgie101

  Thank you for the advice
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  Help...

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

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  I don't want to actually post it where I know people will see and respond so I'll just get it off my chest this way. I think I'm having suicidal thoughts. Not actual thoughts though, just these urges. The urge to feel something slice my wrist, or up my arm, across my throat, to feel what it's like to have my portable heater in the bath with me. I want to feel what it's like to die. It feels so welcoming, so tempting to feel something slice me open. But I know it's painful. I don't want to do...

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

  Blue_Apple commented on the discussion Thank you everybody.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Like

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

  Blue_Apple liked the discussion Thank you everybody.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

  Blue_Apple became friends with keekee.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

  Blue_Apple became friends with keekee.

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  Hug

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

  Blue_Apple sent a hug to keekee

  If you need to vent I'm here. Just hang in there
• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Blue_Apple

  Posted: 05/03/2017

  Blue_Apple commented on the discussion Wanting to end my life.