Help...
I don't want to actually post it where I know people will see and respond so I'll just get it off my chest this way. I think I'm having suicidal thoughts. Not actual thoughts though, just these urges. The urge to feel something slice my wrist, or up my arm, across my throat, to feel what it's like to have my portable heater in the bath with me. I want to feel what it's like to die. It feels so welcoming, so tempting to feel something slice me open. But I know it's painful. I don't want to do it. I just have these feelings to do it and I don't like it.
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I hope you dont mind but i can relate to those urges. I get those a lot those urges of wanting to die and getting the ideas on how to do it.. i self harm too so will I also get urges for cutting where I just need to release the pain and numb it.. it's like an addiction, we can't stop.. it's a horrible feeling and it never stops attacking us until we snap and give into it.. however we can always try and redirect our thoughts to something else.. Yes it's very difficult to do when your in this situation but at least when you try it helps redirect your mind to something besides the sucidial thoughts and wanting to die..