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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Guilt.

Blue_Apple
Blue_Apple

Why. The fuck. Am I. Here? Why am I alive? Why should I try? Give me one fucking reason that isn't guilt. It's all guilt. It's always about others. Give me one reason that's actually for me. I've always heard your loved ones would miss you. I DON'T WANT FUCKING GUILT. I'M TIRED OF BEING GUILT TRIPPED. ESPECIALLY TO STAY ALIVE AND SUFFER THIS MISERABLE THING I'M FORCED TO CALL MY LIFE. WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT ANYMORE? It is never about myself. It's all bullshit. It's all about me staying alive for others but no one wants to actually help me. Well I would miss you. Well good for you. I can't feel anything but negative emotions. I can't think positively when I've never actually felt positive. Well what about your little brother? What about your family? Really? I dunno. What about em? I'm suffering and all anyone can fucking think is about others or themselves. They guilt me into staying alive just because they would feel responsible if I died. No one actually cares. No one gives me a reason for me. Never. It's never about me. Only guilt for others. 

Angel93
Angel93
I've been asking that myself for the past five years since I've been battling depressiona and these negative thoughts that just trap and suck the life out of you until you are nothing but an empty shell.. I'm not going to say all that but I will say at least you reached out with your feelings.. and expressed them.. and people here do know what that is like, yes everyone experiences these emotions differently but we all have the same purpose.. we are all stuck in hell as we watch everyone around us carry on with their perfect life.. I get it, it's awful and painful.. but at least we have a site where we can all reach out and people can relate..
Crossthoselines
Crossthoselines
What made you stay alive for so long? That's a question I often ask myself. I find that when I ponder deep enough I realise I'm hoping for a change. Hope may be small or sometimes like a flame that is extinguished but hope can be built again. Think about that question and see if there's something you really want to do for yourself.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
People who have not experienced depression do not understand what you are going through, They don't realize how hard it is to get through each day. Try to be around and do things with people who are positive. Those who are negative will bring you down to negative thinking. Try to be more positive and set some goals for your life. Just take baby steps one day at a time.. Are you seeing a doctor or a therapist or a counselor? You will find many friends on this site who will understand what you are going through. a