Am I Alone?

I feel so cliche. So stupid. But it happens I guess. As my mother always says "shit happens then you die", but here's the thing mom.. I know shit happens. But that doesn't mean I'm not allowed to mope, to complain a little, to hate how shit happens. Just becasue it happens doesn't mean I have to like it. I'm tired. Physically and mentally and emotionally. I can't handle it anymore. You suffer the same mental illnesses I do. So does dad. Yet you don't understand what I'm going through quite well do you? Obviously not considering you keep blaming me and getting mad at me because you're coping methods don't work on me. Me. A different person. Who just wants to be able to cope in some way and is trying to find out how. I feel so alone sometimes. Especially when I actually think about our mother daughter relationship. I know I have issues with dad and my brother. Who doesn't? But despite our awesome relatonship of telling eachother everything we have issues. Now that I think about it... we may have more problems that dad and I. That's just sad. But I live with you. I talk to you about my problems, or, you know, try too. But you make me feel so alone. Everyone does at some point, but you make me feel more alone than anyone. Now that I think about. Isn't that sad mom? The child that's most well behaved and you have a good relationship with feels alone more because of you than anyone. You let Christopher do whatever, Ryan just keeps to himself, but me? No. I survive off of human contact and talking and being social and open but you make me feel so stupid or small when I "adult" in anyway. I try the most and you yell at me for not doing anything. What's wrong with me? I'm tired of being alone. I know I don't need a romantic relationship with anyone to get through life but it helps. A lot. It's becoming pointless now. Thanks for that.