Sandi2947

One year ago tonight my oldest, my first born son, Kenny, took a step over into the other side of the veil that now separates him from all that love him.  His step took him to the loving arms of our...

Dec 30, 2009----11:48 p.m. My Heart Broke....

We went to a Christmas Concert by Chris Tomlin...It was a wonderful concert.  I never know how I am going to take the music but it was beautiful.  He is traveling with I think a minister who half...

I always felt that Thanksgiving (now Turkey Day), and Christmas was way to close...for several reasons....all the food we eat on Turkey Day...makes the holiday food for Christmas (for me) just not...

Yesterday as I traveled this road I am now on, if you read  my journal actually I wrote 2 but the last one I was having a total melt down....I never feel happy any more,  I never feel that anyone...

Most of you will know the other Sandi of my last journal entry....Her name is Sandi and her screen name is Azgal15....This next few days will be a lot of her first...She now live within 10 to 15...

Most of you will know the other Sandi of my last journal entry....Her name is Sandi and her screen name is Azgal15....This next few days will be a lot of her first...She now live within 10 to 15...

My name is Sandi.  Almost a year ago one December Day, 2009 I lost my son.  A year ago I sit in the waiting room in a hospital in AL called UAB.  I am sitting in the waiting room of the ICU...

Made it through another first....Was handling things pretty well, when someone asked my son about Thanksgiving..did we always have it at his house ...he immediately said "yes" then made a fast...

I am a mom...you are a mom...someway, somehow, we bring our children into our hearts...whether by birth, whether by adoption, however it is we bring our children into our hearts and souls.  And the...

Do you remember the first night your child died....now that is a silly question isn't it...We have it embedded in our minds

What if:  No one was sad in this world we live in?What if:  No one died...we lived forever??What if:  No one ever complained?What if:  We only looked for good things?What if:  There was smiling...

I feel I have gone into a sad mode.  Just the feeling of so much sadness, not wanting to do anything...Guess feeling that if I just get up, get through the day, go to bed and do the same thing next...

Today we celebrated Ken's birthday by going to his favorite place to eat Cracker Barrel....Then the ones who could be there went outside and I had bought balloons all colors of the rainbows and one...

Today we celebrated Ken's birthday by going to his favorite place to eat Cracker Barrel....Then the ones who could be there went outside and I had bought balloons all colors of the rainbows and one...