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Status: not a day goes by i dont think of you Macy xx
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Ive been feeling a lttle down lately. I cant help but wish i was still pregnant. With xmas and jaidens birthday and kevs 30th coming up i guess i imagined them all with me getting bigger. It sux...
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well ive gone from one extreme to another i find myself sleeping constantly. im awake for about 4 hours a day im just so tired prob catching up on all that sleep i missed out on. I am having trouble...
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I have written in a few days just had a lot of mixed emotions and never really know where to start. So sorry if this makes no sense at all.I went to work on Friday and lasted the whole shift i was...
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Today was my aunts funeral it was a lovely service. It was hard to say goodbye. I saw my cousions gf who is due in the same month i was. I had to sit there aand listen to him tell my mum they had a...
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OH where do i start everything im my life i seem 2 fail at lately. I cant go to work i cant do any housework I cant even play with my son. All i do is lay in bed or on the lounge and thats all i...
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It is so frustrating not beding able to sleep it is now 4.43am and still havent fallen asleep yet. I really dont understand why i cant sleep at night. I feel like i wait 4 the sun to come up every...
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I went back to work 2day 4 the 1st time since i lost Macy. I lasted 3hrs. longer than i then i thought i would. I just hate being there. I gave way a few of my shifts 4 the week. I need to decide...
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Had a very rough night last night I think it all just hit me at once with my aunts passing. I did alot better 2day i slept most of it as i do these days Kev came home from work at about 6.45 we had...
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My aunt passed away today. She was still so young and her body just gave out on her. My life seems to be full of loss lately. I hope she is happy in heaven taking care of Macy. I dont think i can...
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still didnt get much sleep last night but woke up feeling alot better 2day. I cleaned the entire house 2day 4 the first time in weeks im so proud of myself. I cant believe how much it kept my mind...
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I Feel so lonely and depressed today. I woke up in such an angry mood and had a fight with my fiance. Its just so frustrating he doesnt understand the pain i am in. I just feel so alone stuck in this...
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Night time haas to be the hardest time of the day. The past few days i have been ok during the day have been able to function without falling apart. But night times are so hard i try to keep myself...
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I had a good day today. My fiance and i both slept in and had a great talk i think he may understand me and what im going through a little better. We did a little shopping and i went down to work to...
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I lost Macy 2 weeks ago 2day. I would of been celebrating 12 weeks. Today would of also been the day we were going to announce to the world we were expecting. i thought i would be having a real hard...
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I had another blood test today to check my hcg levels. i hope i goes down bc the bleeding has stopped (only wearing panty liners now) and my worst fear is to have a d&c i have never had to have on...
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