I need SLEEP

It is so frustrating not beding able to sleep it is now 4.43am and still havent fallen asleep yet. I really dont understand why i cant sleep at night. I feel like i wait 4 the sun to come up every morning b4 i feel it is safe to go 2 sleep. What is wrong with me? Am I crazy? I feel like it. I just want to sleep, to be normal again, to have my baby back. oh i want so much. This entry makes no sense i cant remember the last time i slept properly. Think i need to lock myself in a rooom til im sane