so down

I Feel so lonely and depressed today. I woke up in such an angry mood and had a fight with my fiance. Its just so frustrating he doesnt understand the pain i am in. I just feel so alone stuck in this world of constant hurt i wish i could scream. Then i feel guilty that everyone is worried bout me. that makes me feel guilty and im sure they would all be better offf without me. I feel like such a failure and so worthless. I blame myself for everything these days n i cant seem to get past it. No wonder no1 wants to be around me im just to much trouble. I havent had a good nights sleep in over 2 weeks maybe that is afffecting my mood. i just feel like running away and never seeing any1 ever again.