2 weeks today

I lost Macy 2 weeks ago 2day. I would of been celebrating 12 weeks. Today would of also been the day we were going to announce to the world we were expecting. i thought i would be having a real hard time 2day but im not to bad  a few tears but i did slleep alot so that prob helped. I even got out of the house and went 4 a walk it felt good. I did see a pregnant women though but didnt cry instead i got mad at her. is that normal? Im still waiting to hear from my doctor about my hcg levels i really hope they r down now, im going to call her in the morning. Im getting pretty fed up of this waiting game, all i want is to be pregnant. My doctor has told me 2 to back in 2 wweks to have some tests done to seee y this keeps happening to me. In some ways i hope there is and they can do something to fix it so this never happens to me again. She has also said to wait a 2 or 3 cycles b4 we try again. Its all one big waiting game and im starting to lose my patience