Hospitalized

So my counselor ended up sending me to the hospital on Friday afternoon (which was kind of a mutual agreement between the two of us), and I just got out this morning (Tuesday).  I kind of told her I was planning on killing myself over the weekend when my roommate was gone, probably partly because I knew I needed help.  So I ended up there over the weekend.  I had one nurse when I was there tell me that she thought I was only doing this as a way to get attention, and that in time my "pay-off" would be seen.  I don't understand that at all.  I don't do this for attention.  Why would I willingly live like this just so someone would pay attention to me?  It doesn't make any sense to me at all.  All I'm ever doing is trying to hide this part of me, this depressed person.  I don't go around telling people about it, I'm always trying my hardest to hide it from eveyone.  And then this morning before my Dr. discharged me he threatened to put me in a home.  He said that ending up in the hospital like this with no explanation for my actions is just showing him that I'm incapable of functioning in society, and that I'm not safe to live without constant supervision.