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So this morning I have to set up my daughter's social security. I know that it will help us out financially but it's like it's hitting me all over again that he's gone. I hate these moments when it's...

so many days have pasted since I lost Daniel but lately I've felt this horrible loneliness I just can't stand it. I know that it's just from being alone and not with someone but it's so hard not to...

So lately things have been kind of difficult. Some days don't seem real, then others seem wayy to real. I keep trying to straighten things out and find my roots again. To know what to do, where do...

As the light fades, I lose my mightIt's these feelings I have to fightTo be alone with these thoughtsMy stomach all up in knotsThe tears start to flowAnd all I wish is that this cruelty would goI...

As the days go by, time seems to slowly pass meDays have turned to weeks, sometimes it only sadness in the future I seeI hate knowing you're not hereForgetting our sweet nothings is my biggest...

Well I went today and got Madison's three month pictures done today. It was so cool.to see how beautiful she looked but it was hard because Dan wasnt there. I hate that I'm doing these things alone....

I feel like I have a new found strength for the first time in a month I don't feel broken or lost. I know what I need to do for my daughter and me. I know that Dan is always with me and his spirit...

Tonight's been a really hard night. It's just so lonely, I guess you can't get used to sleeping alone in a month. Dan used to hold me every night until he couldn't anymore because his arm hurt. I...

You know I'm not understanding how people expect me to just be over the death of my fiance already. All the drama that some of my family members keep bringing me is crazy. If I don't have enough to...

Well today I finally had a breakdown. I held my infant and just cried and cried. And she hugged me almost giving me support in a way. I know that she's only two months old but it's like she was being...

Today was an odd day. The tenth would have been our fourth anniversary and the twelfth makes a month since he passed. I could have sworn I smelled death all day long. That cold child chemically smell...

It very hard going on without you here everyday. I dont know how to get a routine going again or how to figure out what normal will be for me. Will I ever feel like I am at home again? I fear that i...