alone

so many days have pasted since I lost Daniel but lately I've felt this horrible loneliness I just can't stand it. I know that it's just from being alone and not with someone but it's so hard not to try and fill the void I have. I want to be loved and feel loved again and I fear that it will never happen. I was so loved and he was so wonderful to me. How can I already be thinking of other people. Why is it I find comfort in the thoughts of being with another. I wish that I could just curl up in his arms like I used to. Lay down in bed  beside him again. I think the pain of this loneliness is the worst part of someone passing. I haven't been alone in years and I don't know how to fill this hole. I have my daughter and she fills most of it but I need love that only a partner can give. I just don't know how to get through this without jumping into something that would be bad for my recovery from this. I guess my heart just wishes I could have Daniel back but that's not a possibility. Life has to move forward. Even though it's hard.