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- The past month was been so good. Well good for me anyways. I don't know what has happened this week but it has been complete hell. I promised myself that I wouldn't cut. I wasn't even thinking straight before I knew it I was cutting. Now I'm afriad...
- So in High School we do a senior day for sports and some clubs. Today was the Track Senior day, my senior day. Basically the underclassmen have a theme given to them by the senior and they make shirts, decorate the lockers, and make them a lot of...
- Last night my mom and I were at my sister's track meet. I have been pretty good about my panic attacks. I've been staying relaxed and out of situations that could make them happen. I guess last night I couldn't avoid it. My mom and I had got dinner...
- Last Night, my group of friends were drinking and being a lgihtweight I was gone first. I can remember everything that happened and I wish I didn't because I cried about it all day today.We were having a good time making memories and my one friend,...
- I am a peer leader at my church and every year we do a retreat. This year, I have decided to talk about my diease and I think I'm going to regret it. It is a week away and I'm having panic attacks, being depressed more because I know once people...
- Today at my track practice, I had a pretty bad panic attack. My team saw me break down and cry. No one tried to help. They starred at me and watch me cry and shake and not being able to slow down my breathing. It took 5 mins for one of my teammates...
- I just don't understand anymore. I try to be happy and make the people around me happy. But every time I turn away, I'm being blamed for something else. Today, my mom pulled me into her room to tell me to stop snapchatting one of my close guy...
- My life was going good. I was happy. Yesterday that all changed. My best friend who is dating my other best friend came over and we were watching TV. The way he was acting was making me uncomfortable. He was laying on me and was hugging me and was...
- Today I had my Cross Country Banquet and being a senior it hit me really hard. I watched all my friends tell me how much I was going to be missed next year and what I was thinking was how am I going to survive next year. On my worst days, these were...
- So I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving. Today was the first day I felt somewhat happy. I spent the day realxing and then shopped my heart out. I wish everyday could be like this:(
- I more I cry, the less tears come out. I'm sitting in my house eating lunch and I'm wheeping yet no tears will come out of my eyes. Has this happened to anyone else or am I the only one. I drink water a lot but I guess it has nothing to do with it.
- My mask covers up the tears, the saddness, the fear. Nobody has seen me in a while. I want to take off my mask but I'm afraid at what I'll see.
- I don't understand why I'm so sad. I wish people around me would understand but they are so judgemental I'm forced to be someone I'm not.
- I have been getting panic attacks for about 6 months now. I just don't know if they are panic attacks anymore. I will get them just sitting in my bed, not worry about anything and then bam I'm hystercial crying, shaking like crazy and fearing...
- I was diagnoised with hyperthydroidism when I was 9. I'm turing 18. I have never been a part of a support group until my friends were worried about me. They don't know about this and I'm hoping it will help me. I have nobody who understands me. I...