Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I just don't understand anymore. I try to be happy and make the people around me happy. But every time I turn away, I'm being blamed for something else. Today, my mom pulled me into her room to tell me to stop snapchatting one of my close guy friends because my younger sister likes him. Like it is my problem that we were having a conversation. And then processed to tell me that I have to make a decision. Either stop talking to him or my sister does. I get yelled at during lunch because I didn't say hi, like I'm sorry I'm having a bad day. I left my house to clear my head, started crying so I had to pull over, came home and my mom is wondering why I took so long. Maybe if you didn't yell at me for the littest things, I would tell you. I would tell you that life is hitting me in the ass and I can't stop it because I don't know how to. I just want to know why I'm always the one to blame, because I did some horrible act of not saying hi when you knew I was having a bad day.
I just needed that off my chest.
If not it's time for her to get off your case.
But she won't. My big sister is this child. I am the golden child. I am not sure that helped me much, because mum spent years intensely haranging me while she sent my sister to coventry for this crime or that. I think the sister got the best deal...
Anyway my big sis can't do anything right. It's some severe mental illness on the part of my mum. The only thing you can do, is grow up, get your education, and get the firetruck out of dodge.
Get away from her. Form your identity away from her. Then come back, the new you, strong, safe, protected - and if she treats you like a 2nd class citizen? Tell her off. you'll have the strength then, and by strength I mean money, ability to just walk out, ability to make it alone.
By all means, start to remove your mother's approval from your sense of well being. It sounds like she gives and withdraws approval very quickly.