V,(nrthngl4ever),
I'm glad you got that out. Our kids, although adult, make terrible choices sometime, and unfortunately affects others, including immediate family. I have an almost identical situation with my daughter and I told her that the state would be the one to step in next. I offered my help, but whether she takes it is up to her. I am praying for you and your family.

I started a new job on Wednesday so my internet access is pretty much confined to morning and evening, Monday-Thursday. I am doing OK, and I hope you all are.

Let's hear from some of ya'll today.

David.

Thanks again David,for your transparency/prayers and support,your smile in itself is uplifting. You know the way I feel is do whatever you want to me BUT do not touch my grandchildren or I may go postal. There is nothing in this world more precious to me. whewwww, now that felt GOOD!!! My prayers are with you,your fam' and all rest who are going thru this. Sometimes(often times) I have to literally REMIND myself, God is bigger than the addiction,lies,deceit, etc. Still believe someday I'll have my daughter back. prayers and smiles 4 you all, vicky

....hopless.Yesterday excelled to horrible. Turned down for the raise. Was promoted a year and a half ago and still not paid for it, then had to sit through an hour of presentation of record breaking profits speach. Left early because I was so pale in the face in pain. Got home and my guys were fighting and put me in the middle of it. Woke up to the same fighting.

Don't want to be at work, don't want to go home. I just can't hold everyone and everything together anymore. It's all for nothing.

Pain has all settled in the lower back, past couple days. If I had to chose I'd rather deal w/this pain than the head/neck pain which is unberable. Mentally/emotionally feel quite positive.... I'll always believe in "divine intervention" prayers lifted up to His throne of grace do no go unheard. vicky

Hi I am Lauren and I am having a bad day. My fiance who I just found. He is in Wisconsin and I am in Massachusetts. We actually met on DS. We have been together a little less then a year and my fiance is dying now.

It started off as emphesma and then COPD. Then his doctors told him that he had a leaky valve in his heart. Then the doctor said that he had right sided heart failer and he wouldn't make it 1 year. Now my fiance told me it's looking like 6 months.

I can't handle this along with my cronic pain and just having my Gallbladder out so I just cut myself with a pair of scissors.

Also what led me to cutting myself this time was that I couldn't get in touch with my fiance for 4 days and I was scared out of my mind that he was dead and his family didn't inform me. I had a panic attack too.

hi everyone, david l hope alls going good,nice to see so many people in here like me nice meeting u all

Enigma, If it means anything, I have hope.

loreali, Welcome. Stop hurting yourself. I'm real sorry for your situation. Talk to your friends and keep sharing how you feel. I will keep you and your fiance in my prayers.

Vicky, You know......

angelwings52, Welcome to you also.

This is a place where you can come and share how you feel. Come back every day. Every hour. Whatever you need to talk about. This group changed my life.

David.

thank you very much,l have come to read the post and its sad to see all these people hurting so l have decided to read and not put in my comment because im also not in good shape sry all

angelwings52,
Just reading is fine. There are no requirements. If you ever want to talk you can message me or someone else and it won't show up on the main board.
Best Wishes,
David.

Lauren...I'm so sorry for what's going on in your life. I won't try to tell you I understand because my difficulties are very different than yours. Please get some help with coping so you don't resort to doing anything else that will only hurt you and not solve anything.

Hugs,

Cherry

im here not to bad today hugs minnie

Really bad start today. Then I find a new friend when I sign on to DS.
Turned my day around.

Thanks to everyone who is here. Sorry that you all have to be in pain to be here.
It is a double edged sword, isn't it?

Hopw others have a good day in spite of pain.

My fiance is doing bad today I just talk to him an hour and half ago and his home health aid had to turn up his oxygen yet again. He says that he is a level 5 last time we talked he was a level 2. That he is sleeping so much more and that he went down 25 to 30 pounds in weight he is wasting away and there is nothing I can do about it.

David I want to cut so much it's not even funny. I think about it all the time.

Storms expected later today. My pain level is screaming. How can yesterday be so good and today soooo painful. Dang!

hugs for ev 1 take care