I could use some support today. I've had more pain than I ever have and can't seem to settle down and do my usual activities that soothe and calm me. I feel panicky and it feels as though there has to be relief from this somewhere. I'm new at this and have only had this condition since February. I thought I was doing well, but the pain intensified yesterday and today and I am scared. Thanks for all your support and any advice you can give. I'm sorry to unload on you good people this way.

Vivmoon, that's what we're all here for. Helping others helps us too.
If you're scared, perhaps you need to see someone about the pain... a doctor, or some other health practitioner?
If you feel panicky then an immediate solution is deep slow belly breathing. Do it lying down with your legs bent and your head supported by a pillow. Sometimes pain intensifies for no apparent reason other than stress.... or the weather... or...who knows? The body is very mysterious. I hope you feel relief soon.
Ama

vivmoom you aren't doing anything unusually. We all ask or say when we are not feeling great, it is even ok to rant. I think that you experieced an anxiety attack. It might have come from the fact that your pain was worse and just made turned up you adrenaline and you paniced. Pain is scarey and it hurts. If you keep getting these attacks. Make sure you are somwhere sitting of laying. Drink something cold if you feel hot. I used to but cold compresses on my head. Breathe as even ly as you can. In and out. If you everfind yourself hyperventaliating and can't stop just use a lunch bag and breathe in and out of it until your breathe evens out. It get the carbon dioxide back in your system. It is nothing you should be ashamed off. Most people with chronic pain experience depression and anxiety. If it contiues talk to your doctor so that he or she knows. And feel free to tell us how you are doing.

Hi viv. I too get scared....you wonder if it will ever end, you feel alone if you are alone or not, it's scary sometimes. But know we are all here going through alot of the same things. You can msg us or post any ol times. There's always someone in the family around to talk to.
Hang in there and know you definitely are not alone. Together we are strong.
Anne

((((((((vivmoon))))))))

it will pass. it always does. fear makes it worse.. wish i could take it away

Angela

Happy Friday Night to all

wishing everyone well

We had a very restful day - started out sunny and nice but ended up cool, cloudy and wet - typical spring day for us!

I tried to keep it cool but last night and today I started having panic attacks.Still have packing to do but not as much as I had. I have been to sleep yet. I spent all today and night and morning sending message to Section 8 housing begging to see if they had a one bedroom for Nov1st that they could let me move in a day early. I said I could pay for that day by paying I would rent per day. Now all the money I had saved has to go towards in the situation hiring a moving team and having them onload the conntents in a storage facility that I also will have to pay to get out and move when I get a place. Also My service coordinator is searching for temporary housing and hasn't even been able to get a hold of the Housing authority to tell them I have no apartment and I have no where to go. If I could just get an apartment or bill studio I think I could stack alot of things until I found what I really want but I can't find anyone willing to rent to me with my subsidy in a somewhat safe area month to month. If I could move the 31st , I would get free help moving my stuff because it would be taking things from my address now to another apartment. They can mvoe my things to storage but cause that is not how it works. I have been crying and my back feels worse and worse. I have to remember to call Time Warner to shut of my cable and phone off before I leave. I keep praying for a miracle. The only results I have gotten form Craigslst is wierdos. I really wish someone truthful would come along. If I have to put all my stuff in storage except my meds and a duffel of clothes why are there no rooms to rent on a temporary basis. Even people who want roommates want them to be professionals or college kids. I sent a prayer request to my old chruch and told them about what is going to happen. I also asked if they had any ideas or would being to be able to help with moving and putting in the storage. I said I could pay them some so that I don't use up all my extra cash in a brief moment. I also asked if they knew anyone that is at the church would be able to had property they rented or had a room that I could rent until I can get back on my feet. The funny thing is tht you would get the most help in from the Church but really doesn't ever work for me to ask. I bet I don't even get a call or a email. I also they will tell me to just pray. What happened to Christian kindness. Anybody in Rochester Ny have a guest bed or room I could stay in until I have a my apartment . I don't think it would take more than a two to three months at most maybe a lot less. I would give some rent and help the best I can. I don't know if I would need an inspection of where I am staying in the room. i would probably need a carbon monoxide detector. I don't know if I will get an inspection . I hope if anyone lives in my city that they would help me. I would let someone move in with me but my landlady would freak because she is nuts. She even give me an extra day. There is much not knowing that drives me to feel crazy. I am anxious and depressed and I don't want my life anymore. I want certainity of having a roof over my head. I feel absolutely petrified and I don't think I will feel better until I feel safe and settled again.It going to be a real crappy two weeks to go.After that I might simply lose my mind. I wont have a computer soon so don't be suprised if you hear from me. I will try to check back in when I get toa calendar.Here I get to try to sleep.

Good morning...well, it's morning, anyway. I did way too much yesterday, it's been raining for 2 days and I've been up since 3:15. I have a labor intensive morning ahead, too.

It feels like I was beaten during the short time I actually slept. I guess I'm just terribly discouraged, this morning.

I wish all of you a comfortable weekend. Mine will include a nap...

Hugs,
Cherry

Good morning everyone!
It's cold and rainy but I'm managing to keep my spirits up. I have a lunch planned with a friend today. Seeing good friends always cheers me up.
I wish you all a good weekend and I'm sending hugs out to anyone who needs one!
Ama

Good morning, I'm here but having trouble reading the posts. Seems I'm in a nasty fibro flare, very fatigued and when this happens the words just dance around on the screen in front of me. Anything more than a line or two and I can't follow it. I've been sleeping alot yet not sleeping well, I hate this! Pain is somewhat under control with my medication. Surehope this doesn't last toolong.

Wshing eveyrone else a better day. Gentle hugs and peace to everyone
Lisa

Hi Everyone,

@Stranded, My thoughts and prayers are with you as you finalize your search for a home. I know your journey has not been easy and in this economy I am afraid it is a reality. I understand since I am going through the same process myself right now. It is stressful and frustrating, but we can not loose hope. Our home is out there we just have to be be determined and find it. Hang in there my friend!

As for me.....My vision continues to double on me. Last night I went to a friends house to watch a movie. I watched the entire film iDouble which was disconcerting. Watching two complete images actually isn't as fun as it sounds. It causes me to have headpain and nausea. I have doctor appointments next week so I can share this with my neurologist. This is a MS symptom and something I have experienced before so I am not to worried. It is just frustrating.

I had a new snack at my friends house last night that was sooo good it. It was two of my favorite things I don't often have combined together. The combo was to die for......it was chocolate covered potato chips (the thick one's). I'm telling you the were really good. They bought them from Trader Joe's I know they are not good for us but wow were they yummy! I rarely have this kind of thing so it was a real treat.

I hope this finds you all enjoying your weekend! Sending you all Hugs, Cathy

Good Morning,

At least it is for me. I'm still in my PJ's.

Lisa, I'm sorry you're struggling.

It's so nice to see you all here. Erinn, I hope you get the apt. thing straight. Hathani, Great to see you back.

I will not go through the whole list of you all, because you are all equally important to me.

Thanks for being here.

I am excited about going back to work on Monday. I hope things turn out OK.

Ya'll have a great weekend. Tomorrow is Sunday and I'm usually MIA from the board, but I do have certain topics come to my phone.

Hugs to all, and let's keep it going.

David.

I hope you all start to feel better this weekend and can enjoy some of the fall weather. Hugs.

I've worked my butt off the past few days. I'm exhausted and really getting angry with my pain. It's tough enough being a hairdresser, but working with cervical neuropathy and a shredded rotator cuff...oh and Fibro and a messed up knee. You get the picture.

Some days, I can't finish and either my co-worker takes some of my clients or I have to reschedule them. No knowing how bad it's going to be when I start my day, is causing so much anxiety.

I have nothing left to give...if I make it through the day. My life is wearing me out.