Hmm so last night I was playing with my hair, seeking out individual strands and ever so lightly tugging on them. I was testing for hairs that would come out with no pulling. About 9 came out. At this stage I'm going to class that as pulling. Maybe if I'd stopped at one I would have thought it was ok, But I kept going. One came out this morning the same way. (Notice my guards immediately went down after a bit of trich behaviour last night). My goal is to be pull free for the rest of the day. So to sum up the last week, I've had about 3 or so pull free days, and I've engaged in trich behaviour by testing different hairs to see which ones are ready to come out. I haven't been PULLING.. This is progress. I'm doing well. But I can do better.

I still have a goal to be two days pull free, come on I can do this!

It's all the same.
I've done that, and it is still engaging in the behavior. One or two, you can call it a mistake, but after that, it's a pull.
Really be honest with yourself, and you will get past this phase & be back on track. Don't give yourself excuses. I've been there, and I would feel guilty, almost unclean afterward.

You can do this!!

Yes, you're right. I was pulling. I guess I knew that, because I kept starting my count over every time I engaged in the behaviour.

I was not pull free yesterday.

Today I'm doing good, though it's morning. I realise that night times are VERY hard for me, yet I do nothing to help myself. I'll write a message on my hand for tonight, and put my hair up (which will take a bit of creativity as it's rather short).

Well that's all for now. I'm feeling pretty sh**** about my behaviour. I know I can do this but I'm just being lazy. But of course I'll keep on trying, and for the most part TRULY HONESTLY trying.

You’re still making progress and I agree with Phoebe, you will get through this phase. Don’t give up you’re actually doing a really good job by being so honest with yourself, it’s going to pay off soon :)

Hands down! You go girl !!

Thanks sweet Lien. I'm still doing good today, and I'm determined to be pull free tonight and tomorrow. My count's going to get a little blurry in the next few days as I'll be on a plane and the time difference is huge. Basically fly out tuesday night and get home thursday morning. Ew.

GRRRRR I can do this, I just need to care. I know I said I had some new goals before, but they're not really goals. I'll have to visualise them a bit more, to make me want them a bit more... I really want to keep my hair, but if I keep this up for much longer that's not going to happen.

Thanks for the support guys, I'll report back tonight if I'm finding it hard.

xx

I'm in the same place. No bald patches... yet. We still have time to fix this. Come on, we can do this! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

We're all with you Sam (and Emmy), just keep trying and don't give up. You will get over this hump!

I agree wholeheartedly!!

Try wearing a baseball cap, especially when you are cooped up on the plane. Sit on your hands, if you have to. That is actually quite comfortable. I often cross my legs, and stick one wrist under the top knee.

Hope your journey goes well, take it hour by hour and keep distracting yourself....I found the long journey to be a nightmare, I came so close and did tug hair as well. I kept giving myself stuff to do with my hands - or drive when I could (highway driving so no red lights!)

ARGH its hard hard hard - but you can do it xxx

Thanks SO much :) xxxxx

Well I made it to one day Pull free, but I pulled a few hairs on the plane. I hadn't slept in sooo long, had heaps of caffeine and a bit of alcohol (oh glorious mix, ha)and there was bad turbulence that was freaking me out. I pulled a few in the car home from the airport too. I accidentally pulled one at bf's house when I got home. But have been pf ever since I got to my house :)

I was disappointed in myself for pulling on the plane. It started as one that came out really easy, then another, then another. Maybe 5 altogether.

I'm sick of it. I'm not giving up!

Hi Sam, I am sorry to hear about your hard day. Its such a constant struggle isn't it?? Every little step is part of the forward movement though. The bumps in the road can throw us off but they don't undo the cummulative progress. Fight fight fight!!!! You have been such an inspiration to me with your impressive PF! I know you can get through this.

Don’t beat yourself up about 5 hairs on a SUPER long flight while being exhausted, drained by caffeine and a little alcohol (which indeed isn’t the best mix :p ). It could have been much worse.
And now you’re back home and you can take a fresh start! :)
You can do this, don’t give up. HANDS DOWN!! :)

Forgive yourself and move on. You can do it! We're all behind you. Be kind to yourself. xoxox

Thank you thank you thank you leah, lien and inkiri. Yeah lien, 22hr flight!! Ew.

I am one day pull free! Well a little over, as I started my pf at night, but I'm officially starting my count from yesterday morning. Day 2. Resisted quite a few already. I'm excited.

:) yeah!! be excited, be motivated, you can absolutely do this!