Ack I seriously thought I wrote a post here 2 days ago! I must have written it out and then walked away without hitting submit reply. Boo. I don't even know what I wrote!

So I've been pretty well, I'm doing better than I was a while ago, gradually gradually getting better. I'm still working on myself, if I don't my psych said I could slip lower. Went away for a week 2 weeks ago, and it was amazing. Just the break I (we) needed. Saw my sister too.

Each morning I say to myself "I'll be pull free today, I WILL, I CAN, I WILL." But, then I pull. Just need to keep on trying AND NOT BEAT MYSELF UP ABOUT IT. It's hard when my hair is not looking good.

It sometimes takes slow, gradual improvement to work up to being pull free. You'll get there. I'm glad you had a vacation to take some time for yourself!!

Thaaanks :) You're right about that. I just wish I was strong enough to be pull free through a crisis.

It's SO hard to start being PF in the middle of a crisis. It's a lot different when you're already on a long PF streak when the crisis occurs. So don't beat yourself up over struggling to become PF now, when you have so much to deal with.

Thanks for that. I don't consider myself as going through a crisis right now, I think that's over. I'm just dealing with the aftermath! I was kind of just musing. Thanks thanks.

I totally feel you on this part:

"Each morning I say to myself "I'll be pull free today, I WILL, I CAN, I WILL." But, then I pull. Just need to keep on trying AND NOT BEAT MYSELF UP ABOUT IT. It's hard when my hair is not looking good."

But what else can we do except keep trying?

Glad to hear that you took a break! I'm so looking forward to my break next week.

I think the aftermath of a crisis can be just as debilitating as going through the crisis itself.... that's when you really have to be like, "well, what's next?" Just take it day by day, I think you are much stronger than you realize!

Thank you very much booyah. Thank you :) Yep day by day, and people do keep telling me I'm stronger than I think I am. Hmmm. Hope you have a great break soon!

I really felt so positive today and being pull free. And I did ok.. A few unconscious pulls. Maybe 1 or 2 conscious. Must keep on trying! I'm feeling more and more positive... It's great.

Love the positive attitude! I hope today is a great day for you. Keep on trying!

Sounds like you're doing great! Stay positive!

That's how it started for me today. One or two unconscious pulls. I think a bit more will power would have prevented further damage, but I don't know. Very habitual behavior for me lately, as opposed to stress pulling.

Yes, just keep trying!!!

Thanks startthejourney and Manda :)

Yep Phoebe, it can start so small, then it just snowballs. It reaches that point where you think "well I've already pulled". Your awareness is down, the habit is up.

Try and try I will! I've probably pulled 7 hairs today. Humph. I can keep it at 7, that's my challenge.

Commitment is down, as well, for me. Snap out of it

Yup, breaking that cycle of illogical thinking is hard! Motivate yourself with some more of your awesome rewards!

Commitment! The missing ingredient for the past... who know how long. It's back! Kinda! It's weak but I can make it stronger.

Yesterday I REALLY tried to be pf. I wore bandaids. I pulled 10 hairs. That's actually pretty good, comparatively.

Today I accidentally pulled a hair just before but I'll be trying the bandaids again and we shall see. I should indeed try some rewards.

Thanks Phoebe and Manda :) xo

You have to build up commitment the same way you build up awareness. Wearing band aids and only pulling 10 hairs is a great start!!