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- My husband passed in 2016. My daughters were 14 and 9 at the time. My oldest is leaving for college next week, and I am a wreck. I know that the loss of her every day will not be like the loss of my husband because I can call her. But I...
- My husband passed away the morning of September 1, 2016. At the time our two daughters were in 8th and 4th Grades. It's so weird how you just get used to the pain. Their absence is not easier, but your wall thicker. I learned quickly to keep...
- My wall broke down over Christmas. I haven't been able get it back. It's almost as if I am at square one, and I have to fight through it all over again. I think I feel even more alone and void now than I did. I'm just discouraged because I...
- Tomorrow will be a year. I am able to enjoy my children. I live to make sure their lives are awesome. (They are so amazing.) I mostly run like a machine now. And there are not as many dark days as there was. I still hate being in this...
- I am beyond angry. The girls and I went to the cemetery yesterday. We had buoght summer flowers and several things to put around his grave. I let each of them pick out something for their dad so they felt like they were still giving him...
- Sitting here trying to get myself together before the girls wake up so this day doesn't effect them too much. Haven't been able to stop crying all night. I thought that just doing nothing would be too much of a void for them, so the girls and I...
- What is it about grief that makes you feel crazy. One moment your fine and the next you can't go on. Then you find that nugget of strength and you continue on again. God bless those weird little treasures.
- So my oldest just finished tryouts for her high school volleyball team. Being in Catholic schools, it is a very competitive circuit. 6-8 deep trying out for each position. She did not make it. It was a three day tryout. I cannot tell you...
- I cannot turn off my brain. Wish I could. Turned 40 two weeks ago. The future is not something that I allow myself to think about. But it has slapped me in the face for two days now. My youngest will graduate highschool in eight years....
- The day we were married... we went straight from the church to Walmart. I stayed in the car in my wedding dress. He went in and bought us each a pair of sweatpants. We went from there to our little Italian restaurant and ordered takeout....
- Happy Mothers Day. I hope you have a wonderful day filled with happiness.
- I am a basket case of emotions right now. I am a teacher and went back to work 2 1/2 weeks after my husband passed. Since then I have kept very very busy which is easy to do with two children involved in everything under the sun. But summer...
- He's the one who could make me feel truly beatutiful after a bad haircut decision. He's the one who could make it all right if I spent too much on the girls. He's the one who made the world right when everything was going wrong. He's the one who...
- We got a bassett hound 7 years ago for our daughters. He became Pat's dog. He took to Pat right off and fully viewed me and the girls as siblings:) He constantly searched for Pat after his death. I didn't know how to help him. It was...
- I am trying to be good. But I hate this! We go through all the daily routines. I keep myself very busy. I've gone through every day on auto pilot since he left me September 1st. I am emotionally drained and so now I'm just stuck in a...