C.S.Ember

Why am I such a total fucking trashheap? Why does my brain do this thing where it starts insulting me at every turn over the stupidest shit? Why can't I fucking function on a normal human level? Why...

My great aunt died, and because of this I lost my job. Well, it is not quite that simple. My mother is my manager at the store I worked at, and when our supervisor told her we could not have off for...

So I'm having a good day today, and I got some art...

EEeeee so fun!http://cinderspark9.deviantart.com/art/Down-a-path-less-Travelled-635023834

Oh my god, everything still sucks, but I DON'T CARE!

Alright, here's how my brain is doing right now: There is a difference between being 58 and having the injuries and problems some people now have, and being 20 and realizing that you never got to be...

Sorry if I'm not my normal optimistic self...So... my plantars fascitis has now gotten to the point where I cannot walk for more than a few minutes at a time. We do not qualify for medical, and I'm...

(Screw iambic pentameter and rhyme... sometimes words don't fit. Doesn't make them any less true.)Fire burning in empty eyes,rage and hate and bitter lies,yearning for the happy timesa single soul...

I feel like with the type of site this is, 'Venty' should be a mood option. Like, somewhere between ok and bad, there's this mood where you just want to VENT about anything and everything. Every...

It was so hard to stop falling back to sleep today. I kept waking up, deciding that nothing was interesting enough to stay awake, readjusting, and falling back asleep. Now my head hurts and my...

I have to go to work soon but I'm tired. Last night, I made food to take with us though, so at least we won't have to eat work food. Yay pluses.

I'm so tired... but I'm not sad or anything... Just, soul tired. Like I just want to go back to sleep for a few days so that I can have a good day again. I think I have to work tomorrow, but my...

But since I have none, I have inundated every food I eat today with poppy seeds... because Dopamine! In other news, since I started doing that this morning, I've been working hard on an artistic...

Not feeling too bad. Head hurts, but I'm working on a few artistic projects.

My mother just went to bed... do I really look so upset all the time that she can't tell anymore? I made her mad for a second, and this thought wouldn't get out of my head.If I didn't exist, she...