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- I just finished a session with my therapist and the discussion was mostly how to balance the the interplay of being right and maintaining an healthy/growing relationship with my SO. Mant times it feels the just free floating anger grabs an issue and...
- I am struggling with my wife's son and wife's attitude toward mental illness. Every time there is a confrontation of them using me they bring up...are you taking your meds?...do you need the hospital?...it makes me sick because many of my caregivers...
- The weekend was good...no viewing on internet...tempted today but so far...no viewing. I know its an addiction...being that I also know in time if I can avoid viewing...each day means less and less pull and more and more different activities will...
- I have the best relationship with my pych-doc but the only conflict we have is my diagnosis of DID. He is of the mind that it does not exist yet the man who did my psych-eval is the one who diagnosed and during/after therapy my life has...
- My therapist discused that the natural way to deal with depresion is to become more active. Today I am doing part 2 of the 'plan'. I am spaending sometime in the public library coffee shop doing my social media, then taking the transit home rather...
- I have been cycling between high and low within a week or two of each other...peolpe that know me don't understand it at all...its just happening so quickly I can't adjust medically, by the time one medicine is adjusted I cycle and I need another...
- I am totally beatened down by my addiction to porn. My wife is a willing sex partner and there are times I would rather watch on internet then participate in some really good sex. I just don't understand...I care for my wife...I would and do...
- My alters get to arguing about who gets to be in charge...atittudes...behaviors...what to do...all of that. I get into discussions in my head with differents alters...the manager controller[me, sorta] tries to keep peace but usually it leaves my...
- I don't know why I still watch internet porn. I remember how excited I was the first time I saw and like all addictions, I'm still seeking the feeling of that 1st time by watching more and more varied forms. I really don't get to excited with it...I...
- The realization that I have multiple issues doesn't seem to be real. I have a disociative condition thats excaberated by bi-polar mood disorder as well as an addiction to substances and viewing porn. I was working with a therapist that helped me to...
- Even though I've been a member of DS for a few years...I still find it hard to share behavior, thoughts, and feelings. I grew with a way of life where you kept your way pf life, doings, and being a secret, only to a few, and/or just tp...
- My alters argue with manager/controller about the reality I experience. My reality is skewed, alters say that I need to start completely over negating the recovery I have but I fear its just a way to avoid the anarchy in my head and just to youtube...
- I've been in the mental health system since the mid 80s. I've done what I can do...I've maintained progress in my recovery...participated in every plan made...I take my meds religiously...cooperate with my staff whoever they are...always worked a...
- I am back working with a therapist who I've worked with off and on for the last 25 years. He is very honest, accepting, and in a very neutral way draes limits to my behavior. He always reminds me that the rage come from my family of origin when I...
- With my community worker/nurse/orgram team in general I get to feeling tired of doing those skills I learned from my therapist. I just wish that I could freely talk about my frustrations of having a DID condition and the various techniques I need to...