Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
My alters get to arguing about who gets to be in charge...atittudes...behaviors...what to do...all of that. I get into discussions in my head with differents alters...the manager controller[me, sorta] tries to keep peace but usually it leaves my wife confused...and us feeling helpless and in the wind...twisting and being blown about...therapy helps but during the boring times that my head isn't busy it churns. Iore but there are only so many hours availible and though I'm a good worker...get good evals...there is a limit to the hours I can work... I also do the majority of the housework, cooking, and necessity shopping...there are just too many hours in the day that are not busy. I just am not doing well.
being internal peace keeper / time manager etc must be very fatiguing on it's own. To also have most of the responsibility for your family home must make it doubly so. I hope you come up with strategies to help yourself cope. Please let us know here if you do, I'm sure many of us would benefit from successful tips
does your wife know your diagnosis?
i always feel weird when i talk to myself.
i dont do it often, but it comes out when i have this super cute, fabulous personality out. shes all about "the world is beautiful! all you need is love! we are shining lights!"
i love her view, but when im trying to get ready dor work its torture! her timeframe is similar to trees, picking out a shirt takes an hour, so then im like "PICK A FUCKING SHIRT ALREADY!!!!". which im sure is super weird to outsiders. ...
I do most of the housework because it relaxes me and I am a nestor at heart. I enjoy the management of the flow of a life together...the nuts and bolts involved, etc...working on our diet and grocery budget. She also keeps me grounded in reality.
The main philosophy of our household is love, caring for people, and living life slow and deliberate. The ebb and flow of my illness dictates that. I am also involved with a community based program with a community worker I work with 1 - 3 times a week, I am trying to get more involved in a spiritual base, and I am getting out more in public [we live in such a nice building with a good apartment that sometimes its hard to leave and get out among people].