I still feel helpless and worthless a lot of times. I've only been in the mental health system since the mid-nineties. I don't know what to say other than I'm amazed by the fact that you are still able to work. Good for you. You should be proud of that fact! I'm on disability which makes me feel like a failure and worthless and like I'm wasting my bachelor's degree that I worked so hard to get. I do work part-time though as a cashier in a local grocery store, which isn't what I went to college for. I didn't work at all for many years though. I was a social worker for the mentally ill, before going on disability. How ironic is that? Try to be strong and keep in regular contact with your therapist and/or your pdoc (psychiatrist). I'm sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

I feel like this at times as well..... If it goes on, ongoing I'm usually in a depression and may need a med tweak

Do you mind if I ask do you suffer from trauma as well or PTSD?

If you do and only answer if you want to you may need more specialized therapy such a DBT

I'm glad that you've found us..... This is a good place for friendship and support.....xo

We also have a good and active PTSD board if you wanted to take a peek

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd

You have alot to be proud of. You've never given up, now is not the time either.

I know we all get discouraged, especially when we cant obtain long term stability. Its frustrating to do everything right and it still not feel like it's working. But you're still fighting and that's something to be proud of. I too struggle alot with both feeling worthless and helpless. Ive done alot of things I wish I could take back and because of that I am really hard on myself and really doubt my worth. And its so unfair that some people can just skate through life and we have to struggle so much, sometimes just to make it through the day. I deal with alot of anxiety too. Hardly ever do I feel comfortable or at ease. And life can get pretty miserable that way.

I'm relatively new to the diagnosis, just several months in, but in my short journey I've noticed tweaking your meds can help alot. Is it possible you've been on the same meds too long and they're just not cutting it anymore? Or with the same psych dr too long? I imagine staying with a pdoc long term that knows your history would be helpful, but maybe a fresh perspective would help too?

This a great place to share your feelings and get support. You'll find most of us struggle with same challenges as you.