This is what this addiction does. It changes your way of thinking..makes you feel like the fake is better then the real. The only way to change is to STOP and do everything you can to do that. 12 step meetings, therapy, filters, blockers. and 100 percent honesty

Hi nowstillhere. You're not alone feeling that way about your porn use. And there's a good explanation for it, as candycin says. The current research suggests that as with any other form of addiction, out-of-control porn use is likely associated with a dysfunction of your brain's reward circuitry. In essence, over time you may have trained your brain to prioritize porn over physical intimacy, resulting in you craving porn without wanting or even liking it. If you want to dive deep into the science, yourbrainonporn.com has a pretty extensive collection of research materials and other articles.

As for what to do about the situation, we agree with candycin's suggestions and would add that in our experience, many people finally get that initial traction they're looking for by making a human connection with someone neutral who understands what they're going through and won't judge. A therapist, a 12-step group, a faith leader, etc. - in other words, someone with some experience in overcoming problem porn use who can help you come up with a plan for stopping now and finding the support you need on a continuing basis. It's tough to make that first contact, but it's worth it no matter how embarrassing it feels in the moment.

Good luck and let us know if we can help.

Yours,
The Team @ PornHelp.org