6 weeks have passed!

So I have gone 6 weeks without cutting. I feel pretty proud of myself, but i know that if I don't continue this patten, than I might die. i have been so close to death before, and it scares me. After 11 days in the hospital, I never want to go back. I never want to feel the way I felt then. Six weeks have passed. Scars are still present, and I wish they would just go away. I just take things one day at a time though. Oh God, please help me. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I want to be free!  ~ Tracie