MaxAdventure

i'm so scared, but if I was in a coma, just asleep forever.  that's not so scary. valium says it can do that with enough taken

i really want to die, I'm scared.   i want to OD, but I think I need the gun.

I showed up at daily strength today feeling good for once.  I think when I'm down I get very blind to things, what's around me and how I'm behaving.  I had a work trip that was a difficult decision...

went to therapist, learned I was just an accessory, and I am a very bad one.  where does that leave me?  worthless.   Wife wants the person she married, not me.  what am i now that is...

Many issues are still around, but several key things that really stressed me have been resolved.I have a new position;  I am finally in a place at work where I can actually do what I've been wanting...

I can't seem to make the time.  I feel like I HAVE to get these other things out of the way; cleaning, get rid of things, etc.   I look at it a lot, haven't started yet.

funny I only come back here when I'm upset.  I want to die againit's been awhile.  I piss her off and I don't know how to fix it. she deserves more, and if I'm that bad I'm bad for my kid and...

I bitch and bitch and bitch about the distance and the wall and pound my head on the wall - begging to be let in. begging to not have the wall.paradigm shiftskin block.  you put it on to protect...

it's a war, somehow I'm perpetuating.she never tries to see my side, work at my level. not open to new/different ideas.my actions speak more than my words - so when I have behavior that doesn't match...

who the fuck is going to bother 'supporting' me?!?!?!  yeah, like this site is going to get me more support.....

1) booze can break barriers2) don't be the grandmother, I have to stop channeling

another fuck me day. I'm an irresponsible cad making my family miserable

cut cut cut, with this tiny little knife,cut cut cut, my tiny little life

everyone has struggles and no one want's to hear my bullshit.  I know that what any given individual faces is really really hard for them, even if it's not hard for the next guy. I get that..  I...

i think if I could find something that people wanted, likie I could help anything/anyone it would be good. but I can't even suppport my family.