things can be good

I showed up at daily strength today feeling good for once.  I think when I'm down I get very blind to things, what's around me and how I'm behaving.  I had a work trip that was a difficult decision to make, but I'm glad I went for two weeks solid. I think having a separation from each other was good. Things have been great since I've come back, I and know most of that is due to my attitude. I also know down inside my wife she's still going to be concerned and worried about the next time I might hurt her feelings. I try to keep it in focus.
I finally have the job I've wanted for years, I hope to prove I have the skills to perform, and the ability to be recognized, maybe I can actually do enough good to deserve a promotion/raise. Anything would be amazing in this economy. I love my team and my boss, I hope I can keep up.  It's great having all the debt paid off to, (except of course the house - which I still don't know if I should try to refinance). The flip side is how little I have to live on month to month. Takes a big change in spending behaviour.  I still struggle with not being able to resist some new toys periodically.  I need to set goals and stick with them, if for nothing else than to set an example for my son.
generally, things are making pretty good sense, if I can keep my head I think things are pretty good. I hope I can finish some projects and I'll have even less emotional burden.