only the bad

funny I only come back here when I'm upset.  I want to die again
it's been awhile.  I piss her off and I don't know how to fix it.
 
she deserves more, and if I'm that bad I'm bad for my kid and they'll be better without me, so I can't do anything on my own, so the world is better if I'm not in it.

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MaxAdventure
MaxAdventure

I make an oath: if one of my lottery tickets is a winner, I will get the money for my wife and kid to pay off all my debt and then find the courage to end my life. I will find the pills/etc and drive where no one will find me. I promise. please I beg let me win
MaxAdventure
MaxAdventure

damn, one a single number off of two tickets. I\'ve always tried to be good but I was ready to invoke some evil to get that to happen. I think the money is so oppressive