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    The meds. I'm on are making me so tired. I take Lithium 900mgs, Lamictal 400mgs., Abilify 10mgs. I was lowered from 1200 mgs, of lithium yesterday so I am hoping that I will quit being so...

I'm starring at a broken doorthere's nothin left here anymoremy room is coldit's makin me insanei've been waitin here so longbut now the moment seems to've come i see the dark clouds comin up...

I put a daisie in my handDeath comes even closera beauty more than I can standDeath comes even closer I put a lover in my heartDeath comes even closerI put the breakup out of mindDeath comes even...

It has been a week I tell ya!      I can't believe that it was 5 days ago that I was stuck on the psych. ward in Marion, Ohio. I hated to spend 10 days on a locked up ward, but what you gonna...

Darkness fallson lonely hoursopening doors for evil powersInvisible symphonyghostly danceYou must leave nowtis your only chanceDancers dance onthe tune unravelsnearing the end of these erie...

    So here it goes.......One fine night, a Friday night, I went totally manic!  I had not slept in days and got sent home from work on Thursday due to a rude email I sent my Boss and her Boss. ...

I long for a friendwho won't stab my backwho won't mind my touchwho will give it back. I long for a dreamthat I won't wake up cryingand help my heart soarlike I am flying. I long for a lifethat...

    Today was bitter sweet. I had the meeting with my boss and she told me she was hurt by my email. I explained that it wasn't anything personal, but I wanted to get my point acrossed.  She said...

I have decided that Bipolar is actually a gift! Why fight it. I think that the great plan for me is to throw food into the face of rude people, to tell off the nasty store clerk that gives me...

I am not going to fight this stupid bipolar shit anymore!  Who is it that says being bipolar is bad anyway???? I think trying to control it is the bad thing.  I called my pdoc and asked if I needed...

     It feels like the world around me is growing smaller and smaller. Tight darkness forms like clouds in my brain.  My thoughts come in static form as if reflective pieces of mirror shards are...

Death - Somthing I wrote long agoPosted on 01/03/09, 06:40 pm You smack my hand when I reach for youI'll never reach out againI'm fading into the backgroundIn the shadow of my shame.There is a final...

     My world, and the world I have tried to build for my children has exploded, crumbled and drifted away like dust on a gentle breeze.  My oldest daughter told me outright last night, that she...

     I feel kind of bad today.  My oldest daughter was very selfish acting and we got into a argument over, since I'm the Dad, I was supposed to do all of the cooking.  I had made pork and...

     A big ole Happy New Year....Or so I hope!  I was lucky last night and went to an old friends house to celebrate the evening.  I was surprised that I had the energy, seeing how I worked 3...