joshuattee

OMG! I have been gone for so long! Many things have happened to my so few friends. As far as me...I have been back to work since 8/09 and doing well. I do have occasional suicidal thoughts, but i...

I know it's been awhil since I have logged on, but, you know how it can be. From March till now my employer made me leave work for falling asleep or looking stoned to the bone.  Today was my third...

It's hard to believe it has been over a month of being off work.  I always thought it would be nice to have some time to get things done. My Doctor still won't release me to go back to work until...

I am thinking of taking a more natural approach to medicating my bipolar part. I am going to stop taking these chemical meds. and going to smoke some reefer.  I figured it out and it would be...

     Today was another struggle.  I had my entire crew laid off today, 17 out of the 84 laid off indefinatly. They took the news as well as one could expect I guess, but I think I took it harder...

Lithium by Evanesence Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.Oh, but God, I want to let it...

     As my Saturday turned into Saturday evening I realized that I don't have a life and it's my own fault.  I did, however, go out to a old friends house with my brother, but things are not the...

    I'm teetring on the edge of not taking this stupid medication regiment the stupid Dr.'s have me on!  My face is bloated and I've gained 8 pounds!  I am done...I don't care if I slice my...

    The meds. I'm on are making me so tired. I take Lithium 900mgs, Lamictal 400mgs., Abilify 10mgs. I was lowered from 1200 mgs, of lithium yesterday so I am hoping that I will quit being so...

I'm starring at a broken doorthere's nothin left here anymoremy room is coldit's makin me insanei've been waitin here so longbut now the moment seems to've come i see the dark clouds comin up...

I put a daisie in my handDeath comes even closera beauty more than I can standDeath comes even closer I put a lover in my heartDeath comes even closerI put the breakup out of mindDeath comes even...

It has been a week I tell ya!      I can't believe that it was 5 days ago that I was stuck on the psych. ward in Marion, Ohio. I hated to spend 10 days on a locked up ward, but what you gonna...

Darkness fallson lonely hoursopening doors for evil powersInvisible symphonyghostly danceYou must leave nowtis your only chanceDancers dance onthe tune unravelsnearing the end of these erie...

    So here it goes.......One fine night, a Friday night, I went totally manic!  I had not slept in days and got sent home from work on Thursday due to a rude email I sent my Boss and her Boss. ...

I long for a friendwho won't stab my backwho won't mind my touchwho will give it back. I long for a dreamthat I won't wake up cryingand help my heart soarlike I am flying. I long for a lifethat...