I took the long way home.

     It feels like the world around me is growing smaller and smaller. Tight darkness forms like clouds in my brain.  My thoughts come in static form as if reflective pieces of mirror shards are going through my mind, robbing my memories, leaving only the bad. I have been lashing out at people, a thing I haven't done in YEARS! But I cannot contain the anger and the pain that threatens to drive me INSANE, I need to get through this but there is no help in this town and so many people depend on me, it's like this awesome responsibility.  I was always taught that you were never given a load that you can't handle, but I feel my knees buckling, my hands aching and my back stooping as I watch my load sink slowley towards the ground. Joshuattee