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    Today was bitter sweet. I had the meeting with my boss and she told me she was hurt by my email. I explained that it wasn't anything personal, but I wanted to get my point acrossed.  She said...

I have decided that Bipolar is actually a gift! Why fight it. I think that the great plan for me is to throw food into the face of rude people, to tell off the nasty store clerk that gives me...

I am not going to fight this stupid bipolar shit anymore!  Who is it that says being bipolar is bad anyway???? I think trying to control it is the bad thing.  I called my pdoc and asked if I needed...

     It feels like the world around me is growing smaller and smaller. Tight darkness forms like clouds in my brain.  My thoughts come in static form as if reflective pieces of mirror shards are...

Death - Somthing I wrote long agoPosted on 01/03/09, 06:40 pm You smack my hand when I reach for youI'll never reach out againI'm fading into the backgroundIn the shadow of my shame.There is a final...

     My world, and the world I have tried to build for my children has exploded, crumbled and drifted away like dust on a gentle breeze.  My oldest daughter told me outright last night, that she...

     I feel kind of bad today.  My oldest daughter was very selfish acting and we got into a argument over, since I'm the Dad, I was supposed to do all of the cooking.  I had made pork and...

OMG! I have been gone for so long! Many things have happened to my so few friends. As far as me...I have been back to work since 8/09 and doing well. I do have occasional suicidal thoughts, but i...

I know it's been awhil since I have logged on, but, you know how it can be. From March till now my employer made me leave work for falling asleep or looking stoned to the bone.  Today was my third...

It's hard to believe it has been over a month of being off work.  I always thought it would be nice to have some time to get things done. My Doctor still won't release me to go back to work until...

I am thinking of taking a more natural approach to medicating my bipolar part. I am going to stop taking these chemical meds. and going to smoke some reefer.  I figured it out and it would be...

     Today was another struggle.  I had my entire crew laid off today, 17 out of the 84 laid off indefinatly. They took the news as well as one could expect I guess, but I think I took it harder...

Lithium by Evanesence Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.Oh, but God, I want to let it...

     As my Saturday turned into Saturday evening I realized that I don't have a life and it's my own fault.  I did, however, go out to a old friends house with my brother, but things are not the...

    I'm teetring on the edge of not taking this stupid medication regiment the stupid Dr.'s have me on!  My face is bloated and I've gained 8 pounds!  I am done...I don't care if I slice my...