joshuattee

     Today I got together with the whole family, except for oldest brother and family, who are in Nebraska.  We had a good time and I was able to depart after 4 and a half hours.  I love to see...

     Another Christmas has come and passed, leaving behind a wispering peace and calming glow.  With the exception of an argument with my oldest daughter (20) about emailing a slide show of the...

I looked around in all of the busy stores and and saw all of the stress on peoples faces. Christmas is going to be hard on more people this year for different reasons. This year I do have a lot to be...

It's good to be at a site that does not want you to join for a fee, or that is so outdated that you read the type off of a cave wall.  Am having problems w/ uploading photo's though.  Oh well, it...

OMG! I have been gone for so long! Many things have happened to my so few friends. As far as me...I have been back to work since 8/09 and doing well. I do have occasional suicidal thoughts, but i...

I know it's been awhil since I have logged on, but, you know how it can be. From March till now my employer made me leave work for falling asleep or looking stoned to the bone.  Today was my third...

It's hard to believe it has been over a month of being off work.  I always thought it would be nice to have some time to get things done. My Doctor still won't release me to go back to work until...

I am thinking of taking a more natural approach to medicating my bipolar part. I am going to stop taking these chemical meds. and going to smoke some reefer.  I figured it out and it would be...

     Today was another struggle.  I had my entire crew laid off today, 17 out of the 84 laid off indefinatly. They took the news as well as one could expect I guess, but I think I took it harder...

Lithium by Evanesence Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.Oh, but God, I want to let it...

     As my Saturday turned into Saturday evening I realized that I don't have a life and it's my own fault.  I did, however, go out to a old friends house with my brother, but things are not the...

    I'm teetring on the edge of not taking this stupid medication regiment the stupid Dr.'s have me on!  My face is bloated and I've gained 8 pounds!  I am done...I don't care if I slice my...

    The meds. I'm on are making me so tired. I take Lithium 900mgs, Lamictal 400mgs., Abilify 10mgs. I was lowered from 1200 mgs, of lithium yesterday so I am hoping that I will quit being so...

I'm starring at a broken doorthere's nothin left here anymoremy room is coldit's makin me insanei've been waitin here so longbut now the moment seems to've come i see the dark clouds comin up...

I put a daisie in my handDeath comes even closera beauty more than I can standDeath comes even closer I put a lover in my heartDeath comes even closerI put the breakup out of mindDeath comes even...