fallenwings

All these twisted thoughts consume my mind as I lay in bed-I twist and turn,wanting the pain to fade away-hours pass as I lay disturbed-controled by these visions,I try to bleed-yet Im to realistic...

I feel nothing more-the burdened feelings have gone away-once again Ive let you down-my mom,dad,brothers etc. You gave me hope,love,strength,and you gave me life-for some reason I couldnt be...

                                              She is limp and weak-she can hardly breathe.      In spite of her effort of standing her ground-her legs...

I feel like theres 2 mes inside myself- everyday is like a battle. All these emotions, i cant tell what they truly are-all I know is that there proven,by my scars. I hope someday-in the near future...

Still bleeding.I cover my ears.I try stopping the pain.I wish I was gone.Its too hard to bare.Why me?How can this be real.He got me frozen in timein hell.He made myself die inside myself While he was...

I havent been on here lately..kinda busy..lately ive been fasting more..better..(??) I dont think about  eating unless it comes to me..i wish my therapist could understand that...i dont fast for...

I havent eaten yesterday at lunch and dinner,and this morning,i didnt have breakfast..but i thouht i should AT LEAST eat a BIT of food for lunch so i bought something..=)   right NOW: 40.0kg ...

Tonight at therapy, had some deep shit sub. we talked about..First, my future(to be honest,i just want to cut and die in a hospital), and last..(i brought it up..) about my dad TOUCHING me in a...

Lately, i check my weight when i wake up, then after a meal..(if i ever eat that is) im so worried about my stomach, i hate it...im fat. Im hoping im not anorexic...=(  I DO eat, but only when i...

i wish i knew more about why i feel so empty inside.. I want to be alone..idk why. I want to see mydad and step mom,and everyone, but yet i feel uncomfortable.. Sometimes, i wish i can just excape...

i wish i knew more about why i feel so empty inside.. I want to be alone..idk why. I want to see mydad and step mom,and everyone, but yet i feel uncomfortable.. Sometimes, i wish i can just excape...

I havent cut for 3 days,but today i KNEW i wanted to..so when i was alone at the house, i filled the bath with hot water, stayed in until i felt all faint and traance like. Then i got my blade and...

feel like cutting in the tub again...i want to feel release for no particular reason, just want to bleed myself empty..

I didnt cut yesterday, accually i didnt HAVE  urges at all =)

All these twisted thoughts consume my mind as I lay in bed-I twist and turn,wanting the pain to fade away-hours pass as I lay disturbed-controled by these visions,I try to bleed-yet Im to realistic...