fallenwings

Life is full of surprises, but good and bad.After the storm hits, comes the calm.I'm glad I lived on and didnt kill myself years ago.I have a life i really love- a great fiancee, who loves me...

Ive been thinking positive about my speech impediment. It`s shaped me in to the way I am today. 

My heart is broken.Lost in time.Out of mind. TIme doesn't exist.Air cant be breathed. My silent solitude.In these memories of youI still keep them close to my heart. My heart in disguise .It can...

Still bleeding.I cover my ears.I try stopping the pain.I wish I was gone.Its too hard to bare.Why me?How can this be real.He got me frozen in timein hell.He made myself die inside myself While he was...

I havent been on here lately..kinda busy..lately ive been fasting more..better..(??) I dont think about  eating unless it comes to me..i wish my therapist could understand that...i dont fast for...

Still bleeding.I cover my ears.I try stopping the pain.I wish I was gone.Its too hard to bare.Why me?How can this be real.He got me frozen in timein hell.He made myself die inside myself While he was...

I havent been on here lately..kinda busy..lately ive been fasting more..better..(??) I dont think about  eating unless it comes to me..i wish my therapist could understand that...i dont fast for...

I havent eaten yesterday at lunch and dinner,and this morning,i didnt have breakfast..but i thouht i should AT LEAST eat a BIT of food for lunch so i bought something..=)   right NOW: 40.0kg ...

Tonight at therapy, had some deep shit sub. we talked about..First, my future(to be honest,i just want to cut and die in a hospital), and last..(i brought it up..) about my dad TOUCHING me in a...

Lately, i check my weight when i wake up, then after a meal..(if i ever eat that is) im so worried about my stomach, i hate it...im fat. Im hoping im not anorexic...=(  I DO eat, but only when i...

i wish i knew more about why i feel so empty inside.. I want to be alone..idk why. I want to see mydad and step mom,and everyone, but yet i feel uncomfortable.. Sometimes, i wish i can just excape...

i wish i knew more about why i feel so empty inside.. I want to be alone..idk why. I want to see mydad and step mom,and everyone, but yet i feel uncomfortable.. Sometimes, i wish i can just excape...

I havent cut for 3 days,but today i KNEW i wanted to..so when i was alone at the house, i filled the bath with hot water, stayed in until i felt all faint and traance like. Then i got my blade and...

feel like cutting in the tub again...i want to feel release for no particular reason, just want to bleed myself empty..

I didnt cut yesterday, accually i didnt HAVE  urges at all =)