sasha5

So yesterday evening I spoke to my dad and thats where i found out the bipolar disorder came from him.  His whole family has it ARGHH when i told my father he sounded like he was jumping for joy why...

Hey guys Sorry i wasnt on for a lond ass time i was at the hospital for a while and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder but im lost is that the reasons why im having the tantrums that are uncalled...

Hey guys I hope you all are ok well Im not Im pissed off.  I am hurt more than anyone can tell.  all i know is never trust anyone including YOU JAMES!!!!!  I guess I should of stayed unsociable...

Oh today is a beautiful day I just want to stay outside sitting in my wheelchair and relax oh its sooooooo wonderful Im outside with my roomate oh my god Its nice and sunny I hope it stays like this...

Laying in bed as i hear from the doctors im getting worse.  probrably from the eh eh oh whatever i miss home i just wanna break free and run for my life if i could i would no balance so im stuck...

Ok due to early mornings going outside to use my iphone I think i got the cold and fever.  Im not gonna be on long because I wanna get off and rest I feel like Im falling asleep outside sitting in...

Emotional rollercoaster all over again I feel alone I had so many panick attacks past two days because my cousin screwed me up Today my dad talks to me about bipolar disorder he said he was just...

ehhh todays not out of the ordinary I broke my cell phone the one i text on now I cant text Im sooooooooooo pissed Im so numb painfully numb. 

Today is friday but it feels like a monday.  This week has gone too fucking slow.  James I am warning you if my bf dont get money today Ill die seriously I love this guy sooooooooooo much and I...

Im mad soooooooooooooo fucking mad I dont know why Im alittle bit hazed on that.  Hey brielle I got your friend request on facebook its weird you started one last night.  Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Hey guys sorry was not on for a while I was not in the best of mood.  My dad came back on friday night yay.  Today I dunno where my mind is I kind of feel left out of whats going on with myself. ...

Im feeling worse today I just wanna go home.  I miss long island I miss my animals.  Yesterday I was in bed all day so i could not write anything or go online I was sooooooooo numb I still feel...

Emotions go high because of feeling lonely.  my depression has got the best of me today im out side so i can use iphone cause they dont work in hospitals.  I feel like crying and this usually...

Wow where does time go a couple of days ago my uncle eddie died from skin cancer one of the nurses was gonna wheel me over to see him until i was told he died Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!  I...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my dad has to go back to germany today why why why WHY?  I want him to stay He says its only gonna be for a week but for me its gonna feel like eternaty.  no...