oh wow where does time go

Wow where does time go a couple of days ago my uncle eddie died from skin cancer one of the nurses was gonna wheel me over to see him until i was told he died Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!  I called my dad and told him that was one of his brothers my dad lost it completely i never heard him crying before nor have i saw him crying before.  I cant go to funeral because Im stuck in hospital and im too weak and the funerals today.  two days ago my uncle asa came to see me he brought us dinner that he made along with kugal for the jewish newyear.  I hope my bf gets his money soon i sent james to the bank a week ago two weeks ago the same shits happening again Im too sick to handle the stress.  I hope james does fed ex asap because my bf is telling me hes not getting it that bothers me.