koolman

It's unrealistic to expect to live in the light all the time, because conflict and struggle are part of daily life, so one must expect to plunge into darkness, even learn to love the darkness,...

Invited an occasional lady friend to see a movie last night, and she was very tired, but agreed.  She's from Saigon, Vietnam.  We've had an on-again/off-again thing going here for 8 years.  I...

Money...it's all a lot of hard work, deep in the trenches, working the existing system that is right here under our noses!  Only so many hours in the day...only so much the body can handle...

Sense of humor has returned.  They've got me there tomorrow.  HIGH TRAFFIC.  Let's see if I can laugh off people's impatience and nastiness.  About to tell this security company no more...

...with a minimal amount of bullshit and aggravation, and without hurting anybody, emotionally or physically.  That is all, for now.

...and the money is ALMOST enough to feel comfortable on!  I'm so tired...

The body never ceases to amaze me.  Whenever I'm feeling old, I get out on the bike and push weight in the gym, and feel positively invigorated.  The bod (and mind and spirit) are still pretty...

January 31, 2012: The 5-year anniversary of the departing from this world of Mark Lee Kuhlman, such a re-Mark-able man, his daughter's loving father, my sisters' and my devoted brother, my parents'...

Played it cool.  Ahhh...we could be so hot if she liked me the way I like her...pretty woman...when she relaxes and lets her heart out...we're like two peas in a pod...the best of friends...and she...

I don't know whether I'm coming or going; such is the nature of working the night shift.  I'm awake when everyone else is asleep.  But it's quiet at night, and I can really think, self-absorb.  I...

Or should I say, pushing above, or beyond, circumstance?  It's very difficult, of course, when we're bludgeoned by information from all sides, that, among other things, the attainment of material...

...tuning into Christian radio, which seems to be our only spiritual education here in the West, mainly for a reprieve from the concerns of the material, financial world.  Have always had difficulty...

Whew!  What a whirlwind!  Put in two 11pm-7am shifts security as per usual at the Claridge, and, after sleeping 8am-3pm, gonna do three 7am-3pms this week, starting tomorrow!  'Twas against my...

Hung out with a guy buddy of mine today, and we got to talking about his departed mom and my departed brother.  He broke down and I hugged him and cried too.  First time I've shed tears in the...

The security company calls it the "overnight" shift.  11pm-7am.  Aside from re-training the sleep rythms to later in the day, which is brutal, overnight is awesome.  Not a damn soul awake in the...