So as it is the weekend i ended up in the emergancy room today, i followed advice of some people on here. the feeling i had/have was getting worse and i felt too physically weak to do anything. I have had heart problems in the past and when i told my dad he took me straight to the hospital, i was so scared and the panic only made me feel worse. The people there where really good though and i had various tests. The doctor told me it could be a number of things, and could be related to my eating disorder. My mum thinks it is. I cant bare the thought of it being related even though i know it is a definate possiblity. I hate the thought that i could have bought this on, and i really dont want to be hurting myself in this way, but although i fight i am caught in this way of living and i cant seem to let go, cuz even though i am scared of these heart problems i also am scared of letting go of the possible reason for them, and i just dont know if i can let go. i'm torn. I have some tablets now, cuz the doctor said it is quite likely i have an inflammed heart muscle and inflammedchet muscles (whatever that means), and so the pills should hopefully help with that. I am going to be away for 2 weeks now, i will miss coming on here, and will if i get the chance.