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Have been eating better, not great had a big bowl of ice cream last night. Worked out yesterday happy with myself. Today I really wanted to come home from work and pound drinks we are having a big...

Ok so I drank last night WTF! I was board no other reason. On the good side it did nothing for me but bloat me and make me feel like shit, I didn't really enjoy it. Why did I do it? around 8 I wished...

Day 5 And doing ok today. My crown broke so had to get what they call a post in my mouth and very sore. so not much to say today

Feeling really positive today! Spoke with one of my good friends sober 8 years and gave me inspiration My only fear is changing who people identify me with and that's party girl! I get this all the...

Monday day 3 getting ready for bed watched some AA steps on line.  Want to go to meetings and need to get back. It hard when you have a husband that loves to have dinner with me each night.  My...

Well today is Sunday and feeling strong. Sunday's are always the day I do good after a weekend of drinking and feeling like shit. I would call one of my best friends that I can share anything with...

Well here I start again 1/2/2016. I'm sick and tired of binge drinking and that bloated look! Anxiety, pigging out feeling like a loser etc. My goal is to journal everyday, workout, not DRINK! I'm...

Todayis again day 1. I haven't been here because I kept relasping and felt like a loser amd everyone even though hard for them maintained sobriety. I'm nervous because we have some dinners with...

Today is day 2 again and at my heaviest weight ever. Just called and scheduled a meeting with a personal trainer for next Monday.  My clothes from last winter don't fit and I have such nice things...

Saturday 11/7/2015 quit drinking and smoking to live a happy heathy life. I will no longer settle for living my life unhappy by my addictions dragging me down.

drinking is not my problem right now it's nicotine so crazy since I started binging again would smoke or use lozenges and for our insurance have to take a blood test not showing in our system. Can't...

I drank and drank this weekend again. Feel like shit today have that bloated face off work and no energy so ate chips and dip for breakfast nice.  I wish I could bottle this feeling anxiety etc to...

Eating like crap and really fast I could win a hot dog eating contest lol! I was always a very slow eater don't know what is up with that. I guess lately as I'm doing something I'm thinking about...

Day 2 and second AA Meeting, I find I'm really enjoying them and this might be what keeps me sober. I'm going to try to go,to a meeting everyday except this Sunday going to try this church where I...

Just went to a AA meeting only my 4 and still trying to understand it.  But glad I went, I am very emotional after last nights binge this young man sitting next to me who looks like we would never...