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this weekend went well.. no purging.. although the need to do it was there... but i was stopped... however last night and today is a different matter and i cant stop myself. inspiration needed...

its the first day i have not purged.  i have had so many thoughts to but kept myself occupied and i feel so great for it and very proud of myself. thankyou for everyones support. its really helping...

i have just had an argument with my boyfriend and i feel like i need to purge. i ate some ice cream and feel so down about that and now this! i need to stay away from the bathroom!

this weekend went well.. no purging.. although the need to do it was there... but i was stopped... however last night and today is a different matter and i cant stop myself. inspiration needed...

its the first day i have not purged.  i have had so many thoughts to but kept myself occupied and i feel so great for it and very proud of myself. thankyou for everyones support. its really helping...

i have just had an argument with my boyfriend and i feel like i need to purge. i ate some ice cream and feel so down about that and now this! i need to stay away from the bathroom!

me and tobias r on a break.. i feel upset but relieved to not be shouted at all the time. i hope this changes him and makes him appriciate me more. i feel shatted .. an emotional wreck and feeling...

so.. its the 21st july! everything is crap! i am crap! my anti depressants are crap.. i dnt know what to do anymore. i feel like this is a  loose loose situation!! 

so i did amazing a few weeks ago i managed a few weeks no b/p... i went back to uni for a week and messed things up again.. BUT i am now on a role again and i have not b/p for 16 days and i am...

so.. i have been doing fantastic... i have been eating 3 meals a day, plus snacks, and having foods which i want like chocolate cake and what not. all together i have put on 10lb.. but i feel great...

day 4!! :D x

so im on day 4 now and i have not purged for 3 days! very happy with myself! :) xx

i did yesterday and didnt purge.. i dont know how many cals i ate but i also did an hours excersise :) xx